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Madness...

Olega
6h 25m ago
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I do not know why I'm writing. Maybe, just I do not know what to do, so I'll write.
When I was young, stupid and naive. I then thought that two people can love each other and care for each other, that can be opened, smiling, and give not wanting anything in return.
But the years passed ...
And every year I am more and more convinced that this is not so.
The world is not like that. And I never was gone. I will not.
For 10 years I have seen many people there were all: very young whores, old pedophiles drug, narcissistic idiots, arrogant bastards ...
And no simple living person with whom you can just shut up, looking at the river. All this year, I was a good man in relation to unfamiliar people. But I can not go on))
In me there is no more love. There was only hatred. The desire to kill, maim, mutilate ...
I think this is the only way to talk on equal terms. Why is that?
I did not want to become so.
I guess I'm trying to tell you that the loneliness is killing the soul and it can not be repaired. Berig those who are close to you ...

Craig
2h 2m ago

Hi Olega, sorry to hear you feel like you have reached your limit. Whenever I think I've gotten to that point, the only thing that helps center me is to ask myself this question:

"Ignoring everything and everyone else, what one thing do I need to make myself ok?"

You know how on a plane, they always teach you to put the lifejacket on yourself first, before helping anyone else. What is your lifejacket?

Olega
59m ago

I honestly tried. Many, many, many times ....
And every time one and the same ...
Always alone)))
Now, every time I see a gay man I want to take a bat and break his every bone. I understand that this is not correct. It was instinct. I'm not sure I could go on like this. No)))
This shit is time to finish.

Eddie_Bastian
23m ago

Hi Olega, I know that sometimes when we're at our wits end it's much easier to get mad, but fighting fire with fire is never the way to go. Do you have any type of organization like an LGBT center where you can go to and talk to someone that could help give you more guidance?

Please just know that even when you feel like you're alone, remember that you're not. There are so many people out there you just need to connect with the ones that connect with you, it will happen bud. Stay strong! *peace and love*

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Hi there! Glad to have you here! How is everything in your part of the world?

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