I'm a 19 y/o guy from New York. I want to have desultory talks about trite subjects. Most of the time I don't expect more than from people on this site. However, you can be the exception. I recently formed a Rock N Roll band where I write and sing.
Stop calling yourself handsome/attractive/good looking when you are not.
Also, it's ok to be confused or curious in your teenage years or 20's. But if you are in your 30's 40's or even 50's and still curious or confused, I'd advise you to get your shit together. It's understandable you never stop discovering and exploring but c 'mon.